Getting Closer

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I would like to say that this process has been in the works for 6 months. In reality it has been in the works for years.  My good friend Staci had the Gastric Sleeve done 3 years ago, I watched in joy and jealousy as her "curvy" body (shaped similar to mine) got smaller and smaller.  This was a monumental event in her life as I understand her challenges and her struggles with weight loss.

Allison and Staci

So when she had the surgery done I quickly called my insurance at the time and they of course "denied" all weight loss surgeries.  Head hung low I continued on my quest for healthy eating and hopeful weight loss.

Diet pills worked for about two months then my brother passed away and I gained back the 15 plus 10 more.  Adkins is my always go to diet, I go on it for about 3 weeks and then I am so hungry I can't stand it any more.  Exercise (let's skip this one I am still in denial).  Weight Watchers Online, Jennifer Hudson did it I can do it too.  Lots of Weight Watchers cook books, scales, apps and online charges and I gained 3 pounds.  Body by Vi - this time I am going to lose weight and make money! WHY NOT! The shakes taste so good!  Adding sugar free pudding to them made them taste like birthday cake.  How can this be bad?  Well I gained 4 pounds on that diet and sad thing is I followed it! You get the picture.  My diets came and went and Staci is now wearing a svelte size 7.

Staci 3 years later
ahhhhhh isn't she beautiful?  I will say, she has always been beautiful inside and out.  But she feels better, she is healthier and she doesn't think about what food she can and can't eat all day long.  She has a freedom that I can't wait to have.

So in January when my company informed us that we are changing insurance, I was nervous as I dialed the 800 number.  I held my breath as I asked the question (not even sure if I am talking to the right person).
"Ah, yes, ah ah ah ah I am Allison and you are my new insurance. Ah , ah ,ah (stammer stammer" Well, I was wondering if you cover weight loss surgery?"   The insurance specialist said back into the phone.. "yes, with your insurance we cover 100% minus the $100 deductible".  I thanked them, hung up the phone and cried.
My dream, my wish I would wish upon a star could actually be in my reach.  Some people dream of winning the lotto (ok, I guess I do as well, but I never play so that would be more of a miracle) I dream of having control over the one thing in life that has escaped me.  The hardest thing for me to control is "me".  I see this as my second chance at life worth living.

So I have completed my 6 month supervised diet (gained 2 pounds), my chest x ray, nutritional counseling, my psychological and on and on and on.  It is all done!  Now I wait nervously for insurance approval.  I call every day (I know stalker) and ask.. " ah, ah, so, ah, my doctor has send in forms and ah, ah, I am waiting on approval for weight loss surgery (my voice isn't a whisper it is getting stronger) ahh, do you know if it has been approved?"  They check, and remind me it could take 14 days and today is my 7th day.  I sigh, and thank them and know that I'll call back tomorrow.

But, when I get that approval I know what I am going to do.  I will cry.




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